after a century,
                   it was mine
               the book called The Young Wife's Help
                   gave recipes for johnny cake
                   cures for garden blight
                   dates for butchering
                   remedies for colic
                   advice on modesty and voice
                   and hints for dying on the farm
               my apple pie was adequate, but
                        my training lacked in
                        making up the
                        proper death bed
                   luckily, there was a chart
               had she known, my grandmother?
                   the coverings to save the mattress,
                   layers to spare the down
                   the words "soiling of the linens after
                        the beloved has expired"
                   told me more of fate than Sartre
               my grandmother,
                        a festival of regulations
                        and the last of hers to live
                   why didn't she say
                   "you wet your pants when you die"?
               I would have been so careful
                        in the car and
                        in the city
                   and the chances taken would
                        have been free of strangers
               had she watched me,
                   arrogant in the plum tree,
                   and remembered moving into rooms
                        busied with blankets
                        speaking low,
                   saying words to send
                        the boys to draw the
                   water for the washing?
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